Intution-2

Buddi mandhyapu, burra manadapu bharateeyulalo ennallaku ennellaku kadalika vachindi? Vachindi ani santoshiddama? Deepalu pattuku tirige manam vayasu udigipoyina mahanubhavuni needa lo swechaga... bayataku vachi, jhoolu vidilinchina simhalam ani cheppi garviddama? Aatallo pathakalu gelichinappudalla “Mera Bharat Mahan” ani I love My country ani cheppukuni chankalu guddukuni sambaralu jarupukune manam aa mataku ardham telise antunnama? Ledante peddalu chepparu kabatti, badilo nerpincharu kabatti antunnama? Kovvothulu pattukoni veedhullo nunchoni simhalla garjisthunna manam repu income tax eggotte alochana vasthe eggottama? Ippudu kumbhakonalu jaruguthunnayi ani gothu ethi arusthunna manam entha varaku nijam ga nijayithiga vuntunnam? Lancham ante oorikine vache dabbe ga? Alantappudu meter meeda 5 rupayalu ekkuva adige auto vaadi nunchi, manaku manam goppaga kanipinchatam kosam chillara ledu sir ani cheppina kottu vadiki pharledu le vundanivvu ani cheppe mana nunchi,kastapadanide vachina okka paisa kooda manadi ani cheppukotaniki siggu pade tatvam manalo nijam ga vunda? Somaripothula, gorrelamanda kadalika choosi simha garjhana anukundam anna manasu raatam ledu. Mera Bharat Mahan ani antanu... Desam ante kondalu, guttalu, raallu, rappala? Naa iruginti vadini dweshisthanu, naa porugintivadini dweshisthanu, pakka rastram vaadini dweshisthanu, andarini dweshisthanu.. kanee nenu naa desanni premisthanu..mari aa desham ante emito?


Nibandanalu enni vunna, chattalu enni vunna, athikramichali, aakraminchali, swaha cheyyali anna alochana vundale kanee enni darulaina vethukkovachu... Where der is a will there is a way, sadhinchalenidi edi ledu. chattam kosam kanna, sulabhamga pani ayyipovali, sulabhamga paiki edigipovali , sulabhamga anni dakkali ane mana jaathi dhorani marataniki poratam jaripithe manchidi. Mana drukkonam maranantha kaalam eh chattamochina, enni udyamalu jarigina prayojanam soonyam. Gandhiji ee kalam lo vundi vunte kachitam ga corrupt ayye vaadu ani chepthunna H.D Kumaraswamy gariki sethakoti vandanalu. Anthati mahanubahvude corrupt ayye vadu inka memu entha alpulam, so memu corrupt avvatam lo pedda tappu ledu, daya chesi ee udyamalu aapi mammalni swechaga dochukonivvanidi, this is our obligation, meeru eh maatram nijayithi ga vunnaru dabbu teesukotam leda vote kosam?, bloody fools , you too have an obligation to save us ani HDK siggulekunda entha chakkaga (mari prajalni bediristhunnado.. leda brathimaluthunnado kanee) mothaniki thana manasu lo maata aithe cheppesadu clear ga... oka chinna musugulo! manam kooda mana guruvinda roopalu bayatapadakunda aithe athanni samardiddam ledante nuvvu tappu anni pecchi kopam tho kaasepu verri kekalu vesi, vaartha parthikala vaallu eppudaithe ee  sadaru anna hazare ni marchipotharo appudu manam kooda mana jeevithaltho busy ayyipodam enchakka.
Anyway let’s hope for the best. I signed it!



P.S: I have got my driving licence by means of corruption. I am sure I am not eligible to write the above post as I am one among them :-)

My Intuition -1

Okay, okay, okay… finally I thought my mind will blast! I wanted to write badly, I don’t mean writing badly but… my desire to write is very badly hurting me. Anyway, I warn you before you proceed to read, what I write is not conventional, its all about my thoughts, just basic and plain thoughts, not ideas, I hate ideas, Idea is a concept derived from someone else’s thought or idea is a forgotten thought, I hate them.




Now.. After my foreword is done, I know you will still have no idea of what I am going to write, no more fortune cookies for you! Let me start right away.



Thanks to a friend, I started thinking fiercely, violently, and sometimes emotionally. My first thought after a huge unpleasant discussion is to run!, run madly into some woods, forest, onto hills, into darkness and I felt like I should not stop even for a moment, I thought I should run until my heart stops beating. Then for few days, I really tried to escape, because all of my beliefs, thoughts, whatever I have trusted as truth, whatever I felt as secured every thing collapsed over my head. Every thing was shattered, my heart was broken, I don’t know what to do, I was sitting in the shatters and just lost, lost like hell. Now please don’t ask me about the incident, as I know, most of you will be very excited to guess or know what that incident might be, and some of you might already have gone into imaginations , isn’t it sad that we are very excited to discuss about others misfortune or discomforts? And it will be more exciting to weave good interesting stories about them even if we don’t know anything about them or their thought process {don’t worry, few months back I was like that}. Then I started thinking, why am I so lost?

Are you mad?, you blasted fool all your beliefs have been shattered and now you are asking me why are you so lost? My beliefs are shattered and so I am lost, so I was relying on my beliefs for my course of action, for my purpose of life, for my way to find truth isn’t it?. Now again you psycho.. don’t you understand ? your beliefs are gone, you are lost, either build a new belief system or go run to your old beliefs and gather those peaces and put them in your purse, look at them and think it is not your mistake, cry a little at your misfortune and move on, with those peaces as nothing has happened. These were the two thoughts I have got at that time. After that going a little backwards, I started seeing facts as they are, I ripped my conditioned brain, and thought of understanding a fact as it is, now why did I have a belief? You bloody fool what is this question? Now .. tell me why do I have a belief? Hmm.. may be because I feel happy? So belief makes you happy?

Why do you feel happy with your belief? Because, belief is a kind of formula.. isn’t it?

Always you use a formula with different numbers and the end result can be predicted.

So, now always you have belief and your end result will be predicted, so predictability,makes you happy. That means your restlessness, your insecurities; your search comes to an end when you believe in something. I escape from my insecurities by believing in a belief. Then when my beliefs are shattered, I again search for beliefs, to live with security. Now why do I have insecurity? Because if I don’t believe in belief, I may not have a proper outcome, so I may not have a definite end or a predicted end and so I believe in belief. But, when belief itself is not a guarantee, then why to imagine a predicted output and collapse unexpectedly? Got my point? You can think, I am mad.. but that’s fine.

Now don’t believe in anything, try to understand the fact as it is, do not observe it from your own filters and spectacles and then you will definitely agree with me.



Now.. my second maniac thought is…everyone says world is with in you, you are the world. World is just a mirror and you are just seeing your image. Now.. I have heard this a hell lot of times, may be I thought, whatever I do to someone, will definitely return it to me, may be good, may be bad or anything. That was my understanding, but out of blue, I some how… felt that.. My relationship with you will reveal me what I am. Now you crazy freak.. what the hell is that suppose to mean? I hate a person, I move away from her or I will try to isolate from her/him and I do all the bloody circus to overcome that.

I run away, I abuse, I paint, I sketch, I shut all my doors and will sit inside watching TV,I cultivate good hobbies, I deviate my mind, I will make myself busy, I will ignore her, I won’t look at her, I don’t talk to her, but isn’t all this an escape from fact?. But, I came to know that certain things in her are irritating me and you chicken headed freak what should I do, should I change every thing and just blindly train my mind to love her?

No not absolutely [you can’t train your brain to love someone of course!], If she is not there I will never realize that those are the things I hate. Now… my hatred is not caused by her, its my feeling, can I question my feeling?, why do I hate her? because she is greater than me? because she is smarter than me? because she has so many friends than me? Because she has got something which I don’t have? Because she will run into my every affair and put her nose into it? Because she doesn’t listen to me? because she is not as smart as me? because she doesn’t behave like my ideal friend? Whatever may be the reason, Is my feeling of hatred helping me or destroying me? Certainly moving away is not a solution, if we do so, we have to be isolated from the entire world, so I must neither be Aggressively active about her every action nor move away from her, I should be alertly passive to every action of her and my reactions should not be a controlled one, because controlling will create pressure and that will burst sometime, which will create a havoc, so be alertly passive and then learn to surpass those things.. How? Now I am not a teacher to tell you every thing point by point, it’s for you to figure out.

Good day!





PS:I welcome any kind of comments on this. I count on people who give a negative feedback on this, because I rate myself high with every feedback against this :-)

P.P.S: I dedicate this post to my beleif in GOD